So 2011 is over halfway done now and here in July I finally thought I'd update you on life so far, from this year. It's been a learning experience to say the least..as much as there's good times I'd say there has been plenty of heartache as well. The eventful part starts off when I was dating a girl, whom I met at work. Her name I'll keep secret, but will tell you that she is a wonderful girl in so many ways. Though we never really got serious, we were with each other a lot of the time. I really did cherish my time with her and appreciated the moments that we had. But as time went on, I found out that there was another guy. He's been talked about in my earlier post, but she fell for him....and I had no idea. I finally called her out on her kissin him. She confessed she did and stated, "Sometimes you don't need a reason to kiss someone. You can kiss someone just to kiss him/her." That bothered me for quiet sometime..I even thought about doing just that..to see what it feels like. I still haven't done it. One night we had a huge argument after she had stood me up 2 days in a row. I ended my friendship with her and have elimninated any contact with her as well. It's something I've never done before with anyone..but she had so much emotional control over me, because I liked her so much. I had to take her completely out of my life. and hope to never had the desire to do so again. She still crosses my mind, when I hear a song, or a comment, or her name. But I've learned that sometimes you have to let go of something good, so something better can fall into place. I'm still waiting for that better part.
My grandma, Jane Salvesen, has been one of my closest friends, and strongest supporters of my whole life. She was always encouraging of me and yet, knew when to instruct me on things that I needed to improve upon. She is incredible in so many ways, and loving from the bottom of her heart. In May Jane was sick, we all thought she'd be able to press through it since she's done it so many other times. But as time went on through the month, she got weaker, and more sick. I realized that this time, the sickness was going to get the most of her. I remember just before she was sick I went over and visited her and grandpa. They weren't able to go to church because it was to hard for them. So whenever I'd give a talk, I'd go to their house and give the talk to them to. They both seemed to love when I would do that. Especially grandma. That day I wanted to give them one of my talks. As I was giving the talk my mom had walked in and down the stairs. I had to go talk to her about something and interupted the talk to see mom. I never came back up to finish it. I still regret that to this day. The last talk I gave them, I never finished. When I came home from my mission, I gave them my homecoming talk, I remember my grandma getting emotional, and with her voice cracking said, "I'm so proud of you." That really meant a lot to me. As she laid on her bed 4 years later, with only hours until she moved on from this life, it was just her and I in the bedroom. I was having a hard time saying anything to her because I'd nearly start crying. Finally I was able to have enough control of my emotions to talk to her. I said a few things, and she responded with some thoughts. I won't put on here what I said, but the conversation was beautiful, meaningful, and I won't forget it. She passed May 24. I often think about her and the strenght she was to my everyday life. She still has that same positive influence on me today.
I've been active lately as well. I just finished summer school at Utah State, and look forward to going back in the fall. I'm playing in 3 softball leagues as well. I planned on only one, but a guy talked me into to playing and so did another. I am pretty sure my arm will need sewed back on by the end of the seasons. Mom and Dad sold their house and are buidling their retirement home. I think they really enjoy it, and the future that home holds for them. I'm still living in Providence with my good buddy Lace. He's a great friend to have and we get a long really well. He's a great chef too!! I did a little work for the radio station driving the 103.9 PT Cruiser in the July 4th cruise in. That was a blast, having my music cranked up full blast as I drove down main street waving at all the cruise in fans.
So that's my summer thus far, I'm sure I'll update you on all of it after. Everybody who reads this, I hope life is good for you. Always smile, laugh, live and love. Enjoy the moments, take control, regret nothing. BYE!!
